Today was a bitter sweet day for me. I went to church last night in order to serve at church today. The sermon was excellent as usual. I was blessed by Christ as always.
It was sad to find myself without any family around me at Easter. No phone calls from my children, wishing me a happy Easter. Nothing. I called my mom to tell her I love her, to thank her for the card she sent and wished her a happy Easter. My husband and I had left-overs for our dinner and I took a long nap.
So sad that not one of my kids think of me on special occasions. I have to get used to the idea of being alone. Thankfully I have my dear husband. he makes every day special. Without him I would not know what to do.
I have only one question that I ask myself over and over again. Was I really that horrible of a mother to my kids?  The answer is always the same. I must have done a really bad job because they simply do not think of me. I am non-existent in their eyes. Ah, but that is a blog for another day.
No matter what, I have my Lord and my husband. And they both love me very much.